Days like today make me wish I didn’t have emotions. Don’t get me wrong, I like them most of the time, but I really struggle when I’m feeling melancholy with no identifiable reason. I have to really fight to be thankful and to seek God rather than wallow in thoughts of me, though this isn’t always something I’m good at.
I am thankful that my emotions don’t change my standing with God or dictate how I must behave. I’m in control regardless of what my feelings are telling me to do. I don’t have to act on them. I shouldn’t pretend they don’t exist, but neither do I have to let them take center stage. If I allow what I feel to control me, I am no longer allowing Christ to have the throne.
No worries, there’s nothing really going on here. I just had to share the bad times with the good. Not that there’s anything bad about going through an emotional down; it makes it much easier to look up to Christ for my salvation and worth.
I think it is just part of being a woman. There are days I wake up feeling like I just want to cry, for no apparent reason. It is so strange, and I don’t like it because it makes me feel stupid.
Ronnica – this is exactly where I was yesterday!! I should have come by earlier. I was gloomy and moody and spent a good portion of the day self-medicating with junk food. Ha!
Today was much better. :)