Diary of a Single Woman, Volume 1
Posted in Solo Historian and tagged with Bible, Diary of a Single Woman, dreams, God, Journal, singleness, Trust, Waiting on November 3, 2009My journal entry, dated October 30, 2009
Last night in the midst of one of my typical adventure dreams (in this one I was a part of a group being held hostage) there was a tender moment (can a fake moment be tender?) that sticks with me.
In the midst of the hostage situation, I had my head on a man’s shoulder as we played with each other’s hands. It was something so small, but that’s the desire of my heart…to simply be with someone, even if it’s in the midst of a crazy situation (though preferably not that crazy situation).
I long for that day when there’ll be someone there, all the while knowing that day may never come. Yet I hope in God, trusting His judgment on the matter to be better than my own, asking Him to remove selfish ambitions from my heart. Not that it’s not right and good for me to desire a husband–it is–but it’s not right for me to desire it more than I desire God Himself, more than I desire to follow Him.
So as I continue in this adventurous time in my life, I lean on Him, trusting Him to be enough.
“For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
The LORD gives grace and glory;
No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
O LORD of hosts,
How blessed is the man who trusts in You.”
- Psalm 84:11-12
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November 2nd, 2009 at 11:51 pm
You’re a young woman with an honest and tender heart. Some day your prince will come…
November 3rd, 2009 at 9:09 am
:) you are so open and im sure God will bless u amazingly!
November 3rd, 2009 at 9:21 am
I appreciate your honesty… Maybe its about finding small moment in other things for now :) & Hopefully no hostage situation will occur!
November 3rd, 2009 at 8:43 pm
That is a very beautiful verse, thank you for sharing. :)
November 3rd, 2009 at 10:27 pm
Someone once told me that I would find someone as soon as I stopped looking. While the timing wasn’t quite that fast, it played out pretty much that way for me. You will find that special person!
November 3rd, 2009 at 11:12 pm
I think that is the right perspective to have! Thank you for sharing your heart, your desires and your willingness to follow the Lord, no matter where he leads you!
November 5th, 2009 at 11:37 am
Thanks for all the sweet comments!
November 7th, 2009 at 7:13 am
Hi, visiting from BPOTW! :)
Thank you for sharing this. :) Someday it’ll happen. I believe that. :)