Diary of a Single Woman, Volume 1
Posted in Solo Historian on 11/03/2009 12:08 am by RonnicaMy journal entry, dated October 30, 2009
Last night in the midst of one of my typical adventure dreams (in this one I was a part of a group being held hostage) there was a tender moment (can a fake moment be tender?) that sticks with me.
In the midst of the hostage situation, I had my head on a man’s shoulder as we played with each other’s hands. It was something so small, but that’s the desire of my heart…to simply be with someone, even if it’s in the midst of a crazy situation (though preferably not that crazy situation).
I long for that day when there’ll be someone there, all the while knowing that day may never come. Yet I hope in God, trusting His judgment on the matter to be better than my own, asking Him to remove selfish ambitions from my heart. Not that it’s not right and good for me to desire a husband–it is–but it’s not right for me to desire it more than I desire God Himself, more than I desire to follow Him.
So as I continue in this adventurous time in my life, I lean on Him, trusting Him to be enough.
“For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
The LORD gives grace and glory;
No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
O LORD of hosts,
How blessed is the man who trusts in You.”
- Psalm 84:11-12
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