Ignorant Historian

I’m an all-or-nothing person.  Probably always have been.  I don’t like things being halfway, don’t like unresolved issues or projects, and don’t like to commit partway.

I suppose this is the part of me that’s prone to addiction.  Once I have something I like, I want to have it again and again.  I go to the same restaurants over and over, ordering the same thing, until I find my new favorite thing.  This is why I stay away from drinking…why play with fire?

This blog topic was put forth by Rodney Olsen, as he answered the question I tweeted the other night (“Read, blog, or watch TV?”) with “Read a little, watch a little TV, then blog about it. :)”.  The idea repulsed me…how do you expect me to plan to split up my night?  A night should be devoted to one cause!

I realized that’s probably not a normal response.  That’s okay, I know I’m not normal.  But seriously, I do tend to devote my time like that.  Today will all be for reading, or blogging, or writing, or cleaning, or watching TV.  That sort of thing.  When I was a student, it was like playing whack-a-mole: I’d work on one class until I was ahead and then turn around and do that for another that I was behind on.

To be fair, this is more the “ideal” for me and not always how it works out.  I might decide to devote myself to reading, and then get the urge to watch an episode of House, so I’ll change my mind right there, stopping in mid-sentence.  But it’s always like that…a quick, instantaneous decision.  One moment I’m heading in one direction, then the next I’m heading in another.

Waiting to make a decision is hard for me.  I want to have my mind made up at all times, and usually do.  I guess I always want to have things figured out, even if it works out in a different way than I planned.  I’ve been working on a more godly, fruit-of-the-Spirit-filled decision making process.

My commitment to blogging is just like that.  I just can’t see doing it on and off again.  If I’m going to do it, I’m going to do it.

So, how about you?  What kind of person you are?  How does it manifest itself?

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