Balance
Posted in Solo Historian on 09/09/2009 10:46 am by Ronnica
I think that most everything we do is to be done in balance. I’m always trying to walk the fence between legalism and lawlessness, work and rest, trusting in God’s sovereignty and taking responsibility for my part in the world.
As a single girl (I should probably say “lady” or “woman” but I like “girl” better), one such area of balance is in the pursuit (sorta) of a husband.
On one hand, I want to do everything I can do get him. I’d love to pursue the man I’m interested in whole-heartedly. If I thought it’d work, I’d reveal my interest to him and ask him what he wanted to do about it.
But on the other hand (cue the Randy Travis song in my head), I want to do absolutely nothing. Instead, I want to trust completely in God’s sovereignty, leaving no room for my work. If God has a husband for me, He’s perfectly capable of bringing Him into my life, creating interest in me, all at the proper time.
But really, my position lies somewhere in the middle. I want both, cake and all (actually this whole not-a-diet diet thing has cut out my interest in cake…but not ice cream). I want to reveal my interest (or at least my opennness) to him, opening the door for him to pursue me. I also want to trust in God’s sovereignty, knowing that missed chances don’t mean that I’m missing out on the life I’m supposed to have. Though it’s a topic for another day, I don’t believe in “The One.”
I definitely have fallen pretty far on both sides of the fence I’m walking…but I’ll keep on.
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